Happiness,cannot be pursued

It's another day out with him today
I'm really exhausted because not enough sleep
back home late again yest night,enjoy the night at nicole's house
It's really fun playing mahjong together and having steamboat dinner,haha
woke up pretty early in the morning and get myself prepared and went out
had a date with my schoolmate,laura.Meet her for a while and back to shop
Baby suppose to come and fetch me at midvalley at 1pm after his work
too bad,he cant go back early. so i had to wait him until 5pm.
doing nothing at midvalley,so i thought of goin for movie alone

watched He's just NOT that into you. Damn it,i hate watching movie ALONE
and having my lunch alone, my double cheese burger. sad thing =(
After that,headed to his house and wait him back
sleep for a while and had our dinner at jln ipoh at night
That's all for today

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I thought no matter how many challenges i face,i can still return to silent retreat
But obviously not! I dint show the black and white doesnt mean that my life was colourful
Cant deny,i really cant get my mind out of this problem at all
It's hurt when your love one not with you when you're down and upset
It's hurt when you keep everything in the heart and no one to talk to
How much i hope i had the courage tell my parent that i dont wanna go Melaka,
i dont wanna take management course,i dont wanna leave..
i guess i am going to suicide soon,damn!
HAHAHAHAHAHA




Baby,i need you ! Call me immediately please