Mess up

I guess it's time to update my blogspot,hehehehe
Since that i got nth to blog about,so this will be a very simple post
There are things happening on saturday night,some kind of misunderstood
Haha,dont really wanna talk about that.So,juz forget about it kays!
Day out wit baby on sunday.he headed to fetch me early in the morning
He's kinda excited with his new car,haha. Yea la yea la,wei la wei la ...
Did a lil window shopping with baby at midvalley and had our lunch there
After that,back to baby house while waiting for his friend to fetch us
Headed to AsiaCafe around 6,and they are started to dota for few hours
Pity me,i had to wait for them for hours ! Boring till boooommm
Had our dinner and 9 something and then Home sweet home :)

Sorry that i had neglect my blog for few days.
I was kinda busy these few days,lazy to blog about it.haha
Ps 2moro are goin to work with baby's cousin.Have to wake up early.
That's really a lil bit hard for me to wake up early @@
This will be a busy week for me i guess .
Miss my school friend so much ! When's our nxt yumcha session?

Well,same problem still exist.Haven solve the main problem
That's why i always cant sleep well at night,non stop thinking -.-
Hey friend,design course or american degree programme?
ARGHHHH ! cant get my mind out of this
i wanna settle all these asap!
or else i wont be able to sleep well at night =(

Somebody please help !!!!! 911 please help !!!!!

Photo Shoot

Well.Stop blogging about the studies stuff for a while.
Let's blog about my weekend,Lovely but tiring weekend :)

Duh,i dyed my hair on friday night.Actually i plan to dye blonde colour

But i had no idea why it become blonde gold.HAHAHA,kinda LALA ~

After that,went to nicole house and had our mahjong session

we had a lot of laughter when playing with our lappy cam

Yeah,Showing our lips! Lips like sugar , LOL

sleep at 6am that day,sleepless night ! really terrible for me :(

Saturday,day out wit janice and carvian to midvalley.

Brought something for daddy,because it's father's day.Heheeeee

back to bb's home after that and watch movie wit the gang at night

It's really really tiring but i cant sleep well all the time,poor thing

Sunday,wake up at 8am in the morning ready to go for my shooting job

Seriously,kinda long time never wake up that early already.

i usually wake up at 1 or 2 in the afternoon.HAHHAHA

Of course i had things to do only i will wake up that early

I wake baby up after that and he follow me to work,hahaha*evil me

Pity him,he got nothing to do there.
luckily i bring my laptop so that he can online there

and waiting for few hours there,He's kinda mm song.ccc !

Camwhore a bit while waiting :)

HAHA,look fugly without make up.Super serious dark circle :(
and when the make up is done.Look at the different,hahahha

There are only two model for the shooting.
and there are three type of make up have to be done

Donno why,i have to put 2 different make up :(

Pity my eye,They are almost crying of painful . CHAMCHAM

Here come the place

I'll post the picture once i get it , dont get shocked when u saw it k ,haha
The 2nd make up.with the hair accessories
Haha,i'm craving for the Bridal shooting next
Hope i will get it. hohohohohoho

ps:more photo in fb acc

The shooting end around 4 and we headed to midvalley and meet up with dad and mom
Had our dinner together at Dragon-i to celebrate Father's day :)
did a lil shopping wit daddy mummy and baby * sweet huh
After that,Home sweet Home

BTW,Happy Father's Day
My daddy is the best daddy in the world,i swear :)

Gossip is a fearful thing

Well,of course there are something happened these few days
tat's why i am here to blog in the middle of the night,silent night
No one was perfect in this world,so dont simply over criticisms peoples
Everyone got their limit too,please dont over criticisms anyone
Seriously,no one could understand me well.Not even myself
I dont fight with you,i dont restraint you doesnt mean that i agree with you
Yes,i dont really talk much! I dont like showing my feeling to others
I admit that i'm stubborn,I'm bad tempered and a bit psycho.haha
I dont really let peoples knew what i thinking about.So what?

Please dont pretent that you are very understanding people,you are not
You are not my stomach's worm == so please dont judge me and my family
I dont mind you gossip about me,but not my family.You're such a BITCH
are you just simply like to poke one's nose into other people's business?
What do you think about?! who cares?! I dont even give a fuck
Who you think you are? The God? Hell no !
So Please,you dont have the qualification to judge anyone
Once again.Dont judge me if you dont know me. Is that clear ?
Dont ever try to provoke me,i'm not good to be trifled with

You should be thankfull that i'm using the please word but not the f word
WELL,I'm not going to curse you or whatever shit !
REVENGE? Ohh,sorry.I dont like wasting my time like that

If this is the only way you enhance urself then go ahead !
Gossip more and make yourself heighten yea !

God Bless YOU

I'm a burden

I'm suppose to be in malacca right now,staying in that room
and i'm suppose to start my class 2moro but i didnt
I'm sorry that i cant stand for it not even a second
Seriously,i was really depressed.I felt so sorrow about that.
I dont really wanna talk about what's happening,sorry.
Daddy Mummy,i'm really sorry.I knew i shoudnt be like this
It was 14 of JUNE today,and i'll never ever forgot today.
My dad apologize to me,they are trying to understand me
My dad said He'll sayang me forever and wont let me get hurt
My tearing was keep pouring out.Seriously pouring out
But i was speechless that moment,dont felt like talking any
What've i done was just crying all the time
Sorry everyone,i was such a burden.I did nothing but crying
In fact,i should be happy because i dont have to go back anymore
but i'm not happy.Seriously not happy at all.
My heart was so uncomfortable,so pain.
I was wrong,it's all my fault. I'm sorry daddy
Btw,i dont need any talk from peoples.No one could understand
He doesnt knew me,and he insulting me without understanding
He was my strength and he's really important for me
But i felt like he's stepping me when i collapse,when i depressed
The feeling was really worst.Worst than i expected

Well,who cares?

Dreams

I remember this,we took this few days ago in your car
very early in the morning,before i go malacca.
There are something stuck in my mind again,same problem,shit
I admit that I was trying to shirk and giving myself a lot of pretence
Sorry,i just dont know how to face the truth.Lost my courage
Seriously felt so contradiction. I felt so guilty
I wanted to go home badly,i wanted to leave malacca immediately
I dont want to study there,dont want to take Management
Well,that's what in my heart i always wanted to say
The challenge i receive, aren't ones I choose to accept
Truth are told, I have no position to refuse.
But then,i think of others.Thinks in many directions,different ways.
My daddy is the one who paid my fees,i'm not the one who paid.
I knew they always want me to have better environment to study
Always gave me the best,wants me to have well education.
Trust me,i really think of it and i really understand.
I'm just nobody,i did nothing for my parents
i dont earn money for home and i used to waste money all the time
Yea,like what i said.I'm not the one who paid,who spent money
There are few k they spent on me just to let me go study there
I knew all these,i really knew.
And i was trying to think for a better solution.
I wanted to move back and study,i dont wanna stay outside.
and i planned to borrow PTPTN,so that i can refund the money myself
or else,i will try to finish the 1st year foundation then i move back
Friday is course registration already,and i haven get my id card back
I really dont what can i do now without my id card,duh
i need the password behind my id card and i need to online register
Well,just let it be . There nothing i can do now.
Urghh,the situation was really weird right now.
I dont know when will i goin back to malacca,perhaps Sunday?
or maybe not going back? who knows
My mom and my dad didnt mention about anything about malacca
just asking me about food there,and my clothes.
And i was not dare to tell my mom that i dont want to go back
Dono where should i start from and dont know when can i say
Help,any volunteer willing to help me? Hahahahahahaha



Externally,the joy appear but not last
Tomorrow,tomorrow and tomorrow.Perhaps i will be alright

Sweet escape

Yeah babe,i should be in malacca now and having my orientation week
Obviously,i skipped it on the very 1st day,and i haven take my id card back
I was in malacca for 2 days,but it's like i've been there for weeks.
I'm just hiding myself inside of room and serve net.
I guess that's the only way that make me felt more comfortable
I received many calls and message from friends and mummy.
They were worried about me and trying to get me out of the room once
I gave myself a lots of time to think about,i did try to bare with it
But,I guess u all should know.I hate forcing myself
On the other side,i felt so guilty too becoz i should had tell them earlier
but nt like nw,i guess it's too late for making changes.Am i right?
Think of my future?I dont think that my future must be found in MMU
It's about the effort u putting in,not the place you going in.
i was keep thinking about 'what i want' these few days.
and the conclusion was still UNKNOWN.Well,give me some times
Maybe few days,few more weeks,few months or bla bla bla...
There are no way that can make me happy there.
I receive message from my daddy when i was in malacca that time
Usually,My dad dont used to msg me. i rmb that's the 3rd time he msg me
The 1st time was my 15th B'day i guess,He said : Happy B'day
the 2nd time was ... hahaha. don wanna mentioned about it anymore
and 3rd He was asking me : Tung,have u eat ? and Good Night,sweet dream :)
and i replied : cant even sleep well here :(
and my tears began to rolling down again . what the hell...
Seriously,i was really suffering there.almost tearing day and night
and really miss my home so so so much :( That was the 1st time i miss my home
This is the view from my balcony.Strange view and i felt the darkness
I was thinking of goin home all the time when i was there
I google for the Malacca Sentral Bus Schedule and trying to get home
And yet,my mom called and she ask me to go back for few days since that i gt nothing to do over there. So,Yeah :)
That's why i was home now.lying on my OWN bed.with my lovely blanket
I was really happy when i was home.Just like what i said: Home sweet home :'(
I used to say that words before,but i dont really felt that way before
but now,it's different.Different feeling when i am back.
I never felt that way before.I love my home so so so much.
i can felt the sweetness of home,and it was really warmest place i ever been
I met my friends just now and had a yumcha session with them
Awww,that's really great. I miss those moment being here.

Please dont ask me when will i goin back to malacca
dont really wanna think about it at all,just enjoy being home now
Home sweet home :'( and i really meant it

Lovessss

Unwillingly

Well,i'm in melaka now
reached here around 11am yesterday morning
my parents prepared everything last few days before
and they sent me here yesterday.
baby and karyian were tagged along
and now i'm alone,skipped the orientation.It was really stupid
i hate that kind of activities,i hate talking with stranger.
I HATE everything here ==
i stared everything around me , everything.
Tell me,what were i am doing here?
It was thousand times worse than i'd imagine
i really thought that i could go through all these
I did tried to talk,try to get some new friends.
i really did . But i'm sorry.i cant adapt this
I couldnt sleep well yest night,even after i was cried
Had no strength to walk forward anymore
I miss my home so so so much T_T
It was really ridiculous,Forgive me that i'm really absurd
I dont need a talk,no one could help!

Dont felt like stepping out from my room
Dont felt like meeting anyone,Don felt like wanna eat!
Dont felt like wanna talk except talking wit my baby
Btw,i miss my smile

ignore me,this is the only way i could express my feeling out




Leave me alone,Leave me alone :(

ps:Melaka was so damn fcking HOT ! MCB

Perhaps,I'll be alright

'Dont worry about it' That's was what my friends told me
I was trying to be happy,trying not to tears,trying nt to emo
Well,okay.I failed.And then it happened! cant avoid :(
awfully,2moro night i will be sleeping alone at melaka
Internally,There are thousand fears inside.
I miss you so much! the time being with u passes so fast
faster than i expected.i hope that time could stop

how much i hope that he will come
dont tell me u dont know how much u meant to me


Alright,end here.Really speechless !


No more tears please ;)

Emo days go away

Nice one!

Poppy

Poppy at saturday night
Not in mood to blog right now
Be patient,i will be back when i'm fine
Photo are in my new facebook acc,so yea :)

Night,ciaooooo